It's getting bad. I remember when I first came to you at 8yr. It as because my parents were arguing too much and it was scaring me. Those were simple times. My life was linear; nothing but simple answers and one outcome. You told me my problems were clothes and my head was a suitcase. You said I couldn't keep stuffing this suitcase but I had to free up room and let these things be expressed or else...it'll bust open.
I wish I wasn't so disobedient Betty. I honestly do, no matter how much it may seem like I think the exact opposite. It's been about a decade since you told me that. My life seems to be more and more exponential. Upon stress, I learn more and more about past family events, the ones they don't tell you for a reason. I've stopped caring about everything from school to opinions. It is truly what gets me by most times. One day I wondered which side of the sanity spectrum I was on, 100% normal or completely crazy because I know for a fact I am no where in the middle. My suitcase is just about at capacity and I feel something is going to happen that frees it. I need another talk.
Sincerely,
Vance
Listening to: Linda Tripp - Company Flow
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